My parents are coming tomorrow for Thanksgiving.  Kayla is coming home tomorrow night (I cannot wait to love on my sweet girl.  We are glad she likes school, but we miss her BAAAADDDD!)  My sister, Susan, will be coming around the mountain on Wednesday.  (she lives in Asheville, North Carolina)   I have made her two batches of Chocolate Chip Cookie dough and frozen it so we can have hot cookies while she is here!  Sue and I love to snuggle up, watch movies, and eat cookies!!  WE ARE SO EXCITED TO HAVE EVERYONE!

Keith has been so wonderful helping me get the house ready. Physically I just have not had the energy and he has really done all the little things he knows means a lot to me.

My brother, Jim,  lives in Swaunee, Georgia.  He is taking over the turkey cooking.  He is an amazing cook!  Melinda, his wife, is making squash casserole.  (She is a southern cook! woohoo)  My mother-in-law, Carolyn, is making her yummy sweet potatoes with brown sugar, butter, and pecan topping; her scrumptious pumpkin gooey dessert,  and fresh green beans.  My mom is making the dressing and pecan pies.  Susan, my sister, is making the gravy.  You know what that leaves for me to do?   You guessed it, NOTHING!!  Well, I may have a few suggestions to make along the way.  (I have been accused more than once of being bossy in the kitchen)

I am planning on taking it easy and enjoying the family.   I am making my daddy chicken pot pie, apple pie and Jamaican Pumpkin Soup (all his favorites) for his arrival!   Knowing they are all coming makes the aches and pains not quite so painful!  It is so exciting !!!


Not so grrrr today

Well yesterday was a great feeling day.  I had a mild headache and a little tired but lasted until about 5:00 and then I gave out, curled up in the bed with Candace and watched Say Yes To The Dress, Split Ends we had TVOed, and then read many post on the pioneer woman‘s blog.  She is really funny, real, and creative.  Candace and I laughed at her six post on burping (ewww), followed her stories on her friends, family and her chaps wearing husband.

I woke up in the middle of the night really achy and could not get comfortable.  Keith rubbed my back and that seemed to help.  This morning the stomach flu like symptoms they talked about have finally hit.  It is not terrible just doesn’t feel very good. 

I keep thinking of Lucy, the breast cancer survivor, I met at the doctors and realize this is nothing to what she is going to be feeling this next week.  It does not make by aches less but it makes me put them in perspective.  I will not whine, I will not whine, I will not whine, I have a COMPLETELY reversible condition!

I have decided to skip the treatment they said I could have Tuesday.  I really want to enjoy the time with my family.  I will pick the treatments up the next week and be done with it by the middle of December.  Wooohooo!

I may move a little slower today, okay I may not move very much today, but I am thanking Jesus that I am going to be feeling better this next year!  It is pretty exciting to know I will have more energy and feel better than I have for the last two years!

Positively G-R-R-R-R-R-R EAT!


I had my first iron transfusion.  I just kept thinking about other things until the time came and then took a deep breathe and went in to the office.  It is a very humbling place.  I have severe anemia but I sat next to a woman getting chemo who had breast cancer and this was her 33rd week of radiation and chemo; across the room the woman had stomach cancer.  She just finished her third round and would start radiation soon.  They had wonderful attitudes and were very kind people. 

They told me to eat a little before I came in, so I did, but only a little because I was a little nervous.  By the time they got my IV hooked up I got a chill and could not make my body quit moving.  They were giving me something in my IV for itching and stomach upsetness first.  I had two blankets on but the lady, Lucy,  sitting next to me said, You don’t look so good are you okay?”.   I was not sure, I was the coldest I have ever been when inside a building.  Lucy  got the nurse and she gave me two heating pads and a couple heated blankets.  I closed my eyes and let the Benadryl work its magic.  As I got warmer, I got sleeper and my body quit moving.  I took a nap and woke up warm and toasty!  (hope I did not snore:))

The iron took four hours to drip in.  It was not painful.  The staff is amazing and could not have been kinder.  They all had a genuine concern for each patient there.  They told me to take Tylenol, which I had to tell them I could not.  They were not sure what should be done in case I get the flu like symptoms that apparently a lot of their patients feel in the first 48 hours.  I told them we would wing it and if I needed something desperately I could always call the doctor on call.

When I left I was a little tired but mostly I could only dwell on what a POSITIVELY GREAT experience it had been for me.  The cancer patient were amazing, their spirit was so encouraging.  Lucy was reading The Shack and we talked about the Lord after I woke up.  She had a wonderful attitude about her cancer and made me want to have a wonderful attitude about my TOTALLY correctable problem. 

I am not counting on the aches and pains.  If they come, they come, but I am planning on getting rest, being positive, and remembering my blessings.  God is using this anemia in my life.  I am really trying to listen to what He is saying. As I was walking out of the office a magazine caught my eye.  It is a magazine for cancer patients.  The lead article, in big BOLD letters was, “Yes, you can slow down”; do you think that might have been in my path for a reason.  I am not sure, lol,  but I am going to read the article and see.

I wish I could say G-R-R-R-R-R-R EAT like Tony the Tiger!

two week count down

I got a call today from the Hematologist.  My insurance has been approved and they would like me to come in tomorrow to start my iron transfusions.  I am really excited.  I will have the weekend to rest and I will not be getting it the day my parents are arriving.

A new friend, Linda, has had a lot of the transfusions and says, like the doctors, that in a couple weeks I should start to have more energy.  I AM SO EXCITED!  I look forward to feeling better.  I am doing the happy dance in my head and cannot wait until my legs want to join in!

9 minutes

Today i got home nine minutes before Candace got off the bus.  Homework is a little stressful sometimes so I really like to enjoy my time and get myself geared up for the HW time.  Today the weather was perfect so I sat on my back deck and enjoyed the leaves.  Half the trees are bare and the other half seem to be holding on for dear life.  When the wind would blow a single leaf would start to float and fall to the ground.  Sitting on the back deck relaxes me and makes remember God’s beauty.

We have a chipmunk that you can hear chirping.  There may be a family but no one has ever seen more than one at a time so we assume he is a lone ranger.

The lone chipmunk

The lone chipmunk

Homework today was not that bad.  Candace said she would wait and do the math with her dad so she would not stress me out.  The nerve of her.  Stress me out!  Well, she may have a point and I think I will let her dad have the honors!

Now if I can muster the energy, I am going to make my hero, Keith, some of the good looking nuts my friend, Robin, talked about.  He loves pecans and I think he deserves something sweet. (he will be doing the math:))

My man

Keith my love

Keith my love

I just read Ree’s blog the pioneer woman about her man. It made me think of my man, Keith.

September 2007 until August 2008 we had a tough year. Our marriage was stretched, our own personal growth was pushed to new limits. We have been married 27 years and this definitely was a year of great struggle but great REWARD. We were determined not to give up on working through the problem, it hurt like hell. We learned that loving someone like they were did not mean leaving them there. We fought hard to come out better individuals who made better partners. At times my heart hurt, ached, and screamed in pain. I cried out to God and many times did not feel His presence, but I knew His silence did not mean He was not there.

This was an old problem that just never seemed to go away. Determined this time to get to the root our struggle effected every area of our life. We were distressed, depressed, angry, short tempered, defensive and humbled by all these ugly emotions that were coming out. We both felt rejected and dejected. The cool part is that we NEVER EVER GAVE UP on each other. We were going to duke it out to the death or the victory and we knew there was VICTORY if we kept on working.

In August both our hearts began to soften, we both were willing to accept responsibility for our part, we were willing to keep trying and keep loving. It was exciting to start to see sun light, to start to feel hope and hear loving words.

September we went away and that was the beginning of me feeling joy again. I started to feel light hearted, believing the future looked brighter.

Keith is AMAZING. He is determined to be all that God wants him to be. It is very hard for him when I am not happy, he feels it is a reflection on him as a husband. This area has been a tough one for him, he has had to dig deep and stretch himself to a new level of personal growth. He has been humble and hard working. He just keeps coming back and working harder.

October and November has been my dream month. Keith found what made my heart sing. He has won a personal victory and it has created peace and harmony in our home again. The road will have bumps along the way but we are a team and are sticking together.

When he found out about the anemia last week he has been PERFECT. He has gone to 3 of the 5 doctors with me, he was with me in the hospital, he has bought dinner (he doesn’t cook, :O) he has cleaned and helped me in every way. I feel so LOVED and CHERISHED by him.

Mixed blessings

Last night I was really tired and discouraged. Everything looked blue, well not this morning. Guess what? I woke up with praise on my mouth!

A few years ago I had insomnia for two years. I never ever slept more than 3-4 hours a night. It was a very productive time, lol, but I was miserably tired. Well, not any more. I am sleeping like a baby! When I woke up this morning I was still a little tired but I only got up once in the middle of the night and went right back to sleep. Sleeping is such a blessing for me.

So I started thinking about the other blessings from the anemia. Yes, blessings, so here are a few:

1. I feel so loved by everyone. People have been so caring and concerned.

2. I am going to feel like a new woman by the New Year. Who would have thought you could inject that? I am not sure what a new woman will feel like but I am ready!

3. You get into see doctors really quick. You get put at the head of the line in the office. I have hardly waited at all. 🙂

4. You meet people with knowledge that will help you.

5. I am learning ways to take better care of myself.

6. I get to work less, scary blessing but I am going to call it a blessing? I am going to have to work on that blessing. It is a little scary to have your income almost cut in half but I have been asking God to direct my career. (NOT EXACTLY HOW I MEANT GOD, but thank you)

7. My husband has been INCREDIBLE. He has shown his love and commitment to me daily.

8. People have brought us great meals. I have not felt like cooking and really do not need to eat out when I am making less so it has blessed Keith and I both.

The list is long and I will keep adding to it?

Do you have mixed blessings you can share?